{Underneath the Stars.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

1:41 AM

Honestly, i have no idea where this is going. i feel really happy when i see her. but, i just can't control myself. and i don't wanna break another heart. oh no...

Monday, November 23, 2009

5:18 PM

Well looks im back to blogger. but no, i don't really expect you to read this. it's really a place for me to express my thoughts. It really does look like im seeking attention here. But no, i'm not. you can leave anytime. I don't need you reading this anyway.

anw. what's up with the really cold attitude? These few days, it seemed like im such a bother. You don't reply my smses, give me the cold shoulder on msn. Well maybe your really stressed up. so i hope things change for the better.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

11:32 PM

Today, i was reminded of the reason for why i was so anti social back then.
The closer you are to a person, the more pain that person will be able to bring to you.
When you stop allowing others to get into your life, the tougher you'll appear to become.
rah -.-

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

1:40 AM

firstly, i don't update my blog really often, since its really a place to express myself, and i dont really have to do that very often.
And this post is gna be pretty emo, or boring, so if ur looking for interesting stuff, hop on to the next blog. ktnxbai

Well, i've never really felt so damn dao mei in my life before. Everythings not going the way i expected it to.
I need a listening ear, and someone who understands.
It's a pain going through this everyday. being so close, that's really what hurts the most.
The more i try to be selfish, the more my inner self tries rip me apart. And when i stop, it becomes my heart's turn to start hurting. It's like a battle going on in there, and it rages on.. and on.
I'm trying to stop liking you. It's weird how i even got to start liking you. But yea, i guess i've fallen for you.
I'm really confused about what to do now. I should be happy for you, i know, but.. the fact's just hard to accept.
And recently, i miss you even more.
and i know, you don't feel the same.
and you've been asking, what my pm's about. yea obviously its you, idk if you know though, or your just acting blur with me.
Its really distracting how i keep thinking of you, even when i don't want to.
Gah. This year hadn't been a joyful one.

results.. zz so damn fked up-.-

I wanna fly away and never come back.
I wanna drown my miseries.
I've never been so emo. i think i'd have been more cheerful if i were back in rv, but, ohwells, i was forced to come actually, not by my parents.

If only the constant of life, wasn't change.

Friday, June 26, 2009

11:06 PM

Wow Junwei, I didn't expect such a tag from you. Thanks alot. :) and it boosted my ego alot. hahas.
I shall post abit on choir then. hahas.
Actually, Choir's not too bad. The last time you were sc, u didn't do too badly:), so you shuldn't have a problem educating tenors. And now atleast you should now how disappointed calvin is when you all don't really get what he wants from you people. The last time i was listening. Tenors are ok, and there were a few parts, you people were able to sing, and sang it well, but please don't so humji. Just sing out, it's nice.
Bass ah, No problem wan la. When Guokai was sl, it was he sing sing sing until we learn. When weiping(most loved by me) was sl, not bad la hor, still pulled through. Proves that Bass is permanently naturally talented. So no problem la, just that without me around less guailaning only. lolx
Sorry idk anything about the girls. EXCEPT FOR A FEW!
Wa amanda, Til now still afraid of her. somehow,i can never laugh along with her. She's too scary. Don't piss her off. She'll eat you up i swear.
Pekkhoon zai please. No worries.
Chingxing, hehx, keep it up! You can do it. You survived being a librarian along afterall. hahahs.
Did i miss anyone out? I hope not! Jiayoux!
*edits*
Ok so i missed out junjie. oops.
Junjie, Well, we've made it through stuff as basses together. None of us are good. But together, we own:)! hahas. Now VP, must serious le. welfare, lolx, make it a fun and enjoyable place. just like how you made my choir life fun and memorable:).

Sunday, June 7, 2009

1:46 PM

I'M FINALLY UPDATING! Cos my girlfriend's overseas, and theres no way to express myself, so i shall post it all here. :)!
I shall start on the day when she went to taiwan, which is wednesday!

WEDNESDAY!
You told me that your going off at 12AM. gah u silly pig. 1200 is 12pm! you got the time wrong:(! so then i din reply you. and we sorta had an argument the night before, so i was worried that you'd be emo on the plane thinking i daoed u on purpose. From 12 to 6(the time when ur plane should land), i couldn't study. You were distracting, and i couldn't get you out of my head. gah. You didn't sms me as well, nor did u come online. it felt damn sucky. I had trouble sleeping that night, hugging my bolster real tight.

THURSDAY!
I woke up seeing ur sms, and was super duper happy! How could you be so careless to leave your phone at your grandma's house huh! and im glad you weren't emo on the plane:)! My entire day sucked, mostly because i couldn't sms or call you. Its a really bad feeling missing someone. Gah, pig! You took a very long time before you smsed me good night. I thought you wouldn't sms. My face totally lit up when i saw your msg:)! yay! Come back soon! You seem to be taking forever to come back. I couldn't sleep well that night as well, but i've got good news from my senior which i'd really wanna tell you!

FRIDAY!
Ok pig! you forgot about me today! must've been occupied with your fun stuff! hmph!

SATURDAY!
I managed to get my mind off you as i slept til 12, played badminton from 3 to 5, talked to yiting(she's good company, so's her sis), and started missing you at night, yay you smsed me that night:)! ahas. so happy!

SUNDAY!
Ah ha! its sunday already! time flies. yet its not flying fast. Its sunday today as im typing this. so far, i wake up at 12 again, played til 1. started to write this since i miss you much.:) I'm super tempted to pick up the fone and call you, yet you just had to be overseas. gah. i'll edit this post again! *edit done on tuesday!* I'm back! hahas. She came online on sunday! at night! when i almost went into a game lolx. YAY im glad im not that playful. hahas.

MONDAY!
Well.. i totally didn't think of her for the whole day, and night. Tried not to la. Until 1am, when i was about to sleep. gah. and i culdnt sleep and nobody was able to talk on the fone with me. so that was pretty much it. Oh and she played bball there. Surprisingly.

TUESDAY!
Yeap so it's tuesday now..9th june. darling smsed to say gd morning! she said she thought she dreamt of me:D! weeee! and i replied. BUT ITS GNA BE SO EXPENSIVE LA! shantelle said its about 50 cents an sms:( hais! i really wish she came back already.. she said shes gna come back on 12th or 13th. So i shall take it as shes coming back on the 13th to avoid disappointment! :) I'M GETTING IMPATIENT! 4 more days and she'll be backkK!!!!! weeeeee! shall edit this post again later. its only 11am now. mom took leave to make me study chinese-.-

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

5:25 PM

Name: Vanessa Chan the pigsie
Age: 14 this year
School: Rvhs
Class: 2I
Personality: Crazy, Very crazy, Super duper very crazy, and super duper uber very crazy. Nice, Friendly, hard to tolerate, but lotsof fun.
Currently: Single(But shes considering a guy)
Status: Missed by me!
Shoutouts from me: Don't miss me too much srsly. Focus on that guy of yours ;)